Hillsong, live in Miami

Today, I was brought to Miami, no thanks to Hillsong United. Jesus was there too. It was pure dope.

My portion, my inheritance

Tonight, during the CGC training with Pst Zhuang, I caught smth that really encouraged my heart.

"But (the Levites) don't get land-inheritance like the rest of their kinsmen (because) God is (already) their inheritance. " (Deuteronomy 18:2 MSG)

So many times, I struggle with the calling of God in my life. I ask myself whether it's worth my time, effort, studies to sacrifice for the kingdom of God. I serve faithfully in the House believing that all things will be added unto me but I never seem to do as well as my friends, who are non-believers, academically. It is not an easy battle because I struggle with my carnal desires to give up the fight.

But tonight, it was impressed upon us that God is looking out for the people who are faithful to their callings regardless of how the world laughs at us. Of course this doesnt mean that we can slacken and stop desiring for worldly recognitions. Otherwise there wouldnt be a need for market place ministry. No, it tells us that the people who are faithful in the House of God shall eventually reap their blessings. They shall be the head in their respective marketplaces, they will come up above all.

Like the verse quotes, we may not get the kind of inheritance people of the world are looking for, but God will be our inheritance, God will be Our portion.This really brought comfort to my soul.

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All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing

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4 points I took back from Pst Bill Johnson during his message this morning:

1) I owe the world an encounter with God.

2) We are imperfect ppl who struggle with limitations, impossibility and insecurity in life. On the other hand, God is a perfect being. We move from the realm of the impossible to the possible on one clause: to trust in Jesus, because with God all things are possible.

3) We are called specifically to be ministers to people in Matt 10- to heal the sick, cleanse lepers, raise the dead and cast out demons. Everyone of us has the same holy spirit in us and are equipped as long as we believe we can. Because if Jesus was willing to work with people (His 12 disciples) who were selfish and thought nothing of killing(Luke 9:54 they sought for the approval of Jesus to burn down the village of the Samaritans simply because the villages didn't welcome them), He will surely work with us and for us (at least we don't harbor harmful intentions of killing).

4) When we pray the Lord's prayer , 'Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven' it is a faith declaration that we've been equipped with the power to cast out all illnesses and infirmities. Because, on earth as it is in heaven simply means for earth to be like heaven, where no sickness abounds.

Loved the POG in the house this morning :)


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Relationship precedes ministry.

Just yesterday, PK shared with us about the importance of having a love relationship with God, before we should think about leadership. Many times, we fall pray to wanting to impress God, our leaders, wondering what we can do for them, for His people. But what God really wants is for us to be happy above all else and to have an endearing r/s w Him. If we are only caught up with serving, one day we will falter when people or God himself disappoints us because we will feel unrequited. Don't serve for the sake of serving, serve out of your heart and because you want to.

"I rather you be a happy member, than an unhappy connect group leader." This really brought comfort to my soul.

Sometimes, it really isn't about preaching down people's throats. No one wants to hear about the negative. No one wants to hear that what they are doing is wrong. Sometimes, it just takes a listening ear. I guess I overlooked that or I did something wrong along the way. Got into a pretty bad conflict with A last night, our worst so far. Guess I've been giving the impression that I am only interested in preaching, but never in understand what he's thinking. wells. Food for thought.

Zoe life of God

Zoe. The Zoe life of God.

It's been almost 1.5 years since I got baptized on the 18th of Sept 2010. 2010 was easily the toughest year of my life because I lost 2 people/thing that were closest to my heart for the longest period of time. That year, it felt like my world came to a standstill, and every day of my life, I felt like I was carrying a physical body void of life. I was a lifeless person and I didn't know if I was going to experience joy anymore. My friends told me there was no life when they look into my eyes. Yes, looking back, I have every good reason to say I was going through depression.
Then came my 21st birthday. More than just celebrating a milestone in my life, I celebrated adulthood. I was asked whether I wanted to be baptized. My parents are non believers, conservative atheists I would say, and they believed that being baptized would change me radically. No, it is not that I don't honour or respect their decisions but I thought I was sensible and old enough to make my choice. And I badly needed/ wanted something that could bring life back to my soul again. So renouncing my faith and declaring myself as a child of God through water baptism was the next step I needed to take.

Choosing my baptism name was easy. I wanted the breath of God upon my life, to be within me. Yes, Zoe is a common name even amongst non believers. But I was convicted that I needed the Zoe life of God inside of me.

For some people, going through water baptism can radically transform their lives. Yes, there are many testimonies of people who step into the water and leave as a new man practically. People who struggled with drugs/alcohol/smoking and couldn't get rid of these vices literally died to their flesh and addictions the moment they step out. For me, it wasn't as exciting, but that is not to say my baptism was merely some religious routine.

And they say, you are either your name or you aspire to be your name. For me, I started experiencing what it means to be Zoe, slowly but so surely. I started experiencing the joy of the Lord, the peace, the love, and more than everything else, the life of God which took over and resurrected a body that contained a 2 years old dead soul.

It doesn't matter to me that Zoe is a common name, because it is my personal revelation that I am Zoe, and I have the Zoe life of God inside of me :)

Always remember :)

this is my cell group at 3.32AM in church this morning for our OPM, still very alive and excited :)

it was the first time i stayed through an OPM last night, believe it or not. i consider it a breakthrough because i've never been able to last beyond 2 hours. the PnW sessions were so good, so so good. my friends on stage were all so awesome in song leading and their guitar skills :)

i think i'm readier as compared to half a year ago and this time, i wanna put in efforts too :)

Thank You J

never decline when the opportunity to serve arises (i know, easier said than done).

was given a chance at serving chorus board for our zone young adult's PM. basically, while PnW goes, i'm the one in charged of flashing the slides. it was my first time and i was tremendously blessed by the experience. although there were numerous technical glitches (yea, imagine the fluster in my heart and shock on everyone else's faces when worship song lyrics came on the screen into the start of the first praise song -_-) and how i was really fumbling to the last second literally before the PM numbering my slides and all. but was i humbled by the people who extended their helping hands to me when they saw the fluster on my face and the encouragements they offered. and of course, not to mention when WY came to me during worship and said 'lock this image into your heart. you are part of it'. i looked at the people worshipping with all their hearts; i felt God's presence come upon me immediately and i myself was ministered as i served.

there's so much i gained out of this experience and SO MUCH MORE i need to learn - to enlarge my capacity in times of stress and even to learn to be the encourager through difficult times, to be sharper with my surroundings (i have never been someone who notices details until i'm forced into it), to be thick-skinned about embarrassing myself and yet be humble to learn from mistakes, and to have a willing heart to serve.

most of all, i'm so happy to be able to serve with W511 today :)

remembrance

my heart is filled with gratitude and pumped up with excitement for M and myself.

we thought it was gonna be a normal meeting but it exceeded above and beyond our imaginations. i believe God is calling us to expand our tents and to stop thinking small. S once told me that if i keep looking inside, there is only so much i can do because i limit myself by believing that this is the maximum i can do. but if i look through the eyes of God, it's a whole new level.

i remember; at the start of the year, i told a few people it was my desire to lead offering message. i didn't think much of it because i didn't want to hurry myself just for the sake. but i believe God remembers. and im on my way there. taking small steps; slowly but steadily. i'm so thankful to S for giving me a chance to prove myself and to God for remembering. i serve a God of remembrance.