today i realized i can never fathom the magnitude of my possessiveness and jealousness. for the whole day it was weighing down on me. i didnt like what i see. didnt like it. I HATED IT. it felt extremely disturbing yet i had to keep it to myself. i dont like this kind of feelings because it really ties me down and it makes me unhappy and tired. i dont care even if i have no rights to but i just hate it and i am very possessive and jealous NOW. NOW. NOW.

theres a dull ache in my heart. the sunburnt patch hurts like mad too :(